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"I’ve been living,
At the height of conceit,
An ostensible life,
Confined,
In a circle of insipid living beings..
Chattering & babbling things,that
They guessed,
I would like to hear.
Their attempt to generalize my existence.
I kept making excursions,
Inside them,outside me,
Like a tinker.
Not to escape,but to fathom,
Those fatuous lives.

And then,
Came you,
Out of the blue,
Empowering, overshadowing,
The fastidious ego of mine.
You , insolently innocent!
Me , guilelessly wicked!

You came swaggering,
Taking struts with a defiant,
Carelessly,
Unintentionally,
And eradicated
My esoteric panache,
And alleviated,my metamorphosis,
Into a cringing,relegated morose.
Your eyes hurted,something in me,
I tried to thwart,
You thrusted it hard,
It’s pain,I’s seething.
You’re standing,
At the postern of my heart,
Exuding power,
Impeccable,
Like a master,
Taking me over,as a whole,
Making me meek,
With your derisive smile,
That too,innocent.
But I’m not weak,you know well,
I wanted to scream,
But I didn’t…
Coz,that would let you win.
I shuddered with angst,
My eyelids writhed,
You let me go,
of that captivating glance,
I breathed deep,
Out of the predicament,
Feeling feather-soft light.

How much I hate the fact,
That I liked the way,
Your eyes held me.
How,you can see everything within,
Without even looking at me?
Piercing my body,
Sheering my spirit,
Lancing my thoughts,
& beyond.
Leaving me,
Nakedly obvious,
Making me,
Obliviously drained!

You’ve owned me,
Blatantly,
I didn’t permit you,
Still, I couldn’t complain.
I hate to think about you,
But my thoughts,
Follow you like a lamb.

I know you enjoy it,
Cause’ you know,
You’re the only one,
I can fall for.
& you know I despise it,
Cause’ I know,
Loving you, will make all my efforts,
To hate you,
Go vanish.
Your sheer presence on this earth,
Gives me a sense,
Of being vulnerable,
Masticating my strengths,
That I’ve been
Mustering up for years.
You abnegate,
Yet I see, contempt
In your eyes,
Bickering with the longing
That I’d denied myself,
But you have for me.
And ,in that single moment,
We shared
A common denominator.
It striked me,
Somewhere deep,
Breaking the stacked ice
Of years
Melting the soul,
Dissolving me,
I swamped,
Within that moment.
I’m long gone,
Stand nowhere on solid,
Floating above the empyrean,
You make me, survived!!!